she said i'm the first one that can soothe her october sadness.

her october sadness is just a naive love story where she devoured all of her heart for a worthless boy with a worthless mind, where she loved him deeply to the moon and back without a care for anybody else in the world, except for him only; but most of all, it's a lesson. a painful one that she had to learn it the hard way later.

and of course, she didn't rush finding love again just to be able to fill that black void which made her sob everyday. she wanted to find someone who will love and cherish her as if she is the only girl that exists in their eyes only, and she will love and cherish them in the exact same way. haven, my love, it makes me feel joyful that you don't give up on your dream and happiness easily. even though, i know your heart has been digging a deep grave just to bury your october sadness in it.

your taies about him are always filled with such cold gaze and dull interest, as your love for him has died in one of the rarest times you actually care enough to love someone with everything that you have. you can try to sound as cruel and annoyed as possible, but please answer me, how many times does one really dare to love another with all the goods and bads in them? no, i'm not saying that you're still blindly inlove with him, it just seems like you wish you had been wiser.

haven, my love, you know people aren't normal when they're deeply inlove. just like me, does it sound crazy if i say that i want you to love me as much as back when you were blindly inlove with him.

love me will you ignore all of my flaws. love me more as if Hera herself still chooses to stay by Zeus's side even when she knows all of the horrible things that he's done. love me the most even when i have to leave you waiting for days. love me like always every time i try to ignore your "i love you." in your dreams, beside from your happiness, apart from your sadness, i want you to love me more like those.

though, obviously i would never let you go through all of the things i just mentioned above, because i really love you so.